It's taken me quite a few years, but I've finally reconciled myself to the fact that
AND THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT!
Running seems to be the pinnacle of exercise success to a lot of bloggers out there. They post pics of their races, their training, pics of themselves in cute little outfits, with funky headbands, flexing their muscles. I always think I would be way too embarrassed to pull out my iphone and photograph myself while working out -- but to each his own, I give full credit to those bloggers that do that, you are inspiring a nation! I'm way to red in the face and out of breath when I'm training at the gym, to be photographed.
But I've finally allowed myself to be honest, and admit, no matter how hard I try - I DO NOT LIKE TO RUN!
I was a runner once, for a brief period of my life. A personal trainer I was seeing had a whole group of us training for a 10K. We took a few months. I finally was running for 50 minutes at a time, a big thing for me, and then I got pregnant, and started to bleed, and that ended my running career for a long time. I always thought that maybe I couldn't get back into it because of the association of the miscarriage I had (I've had 2, one before Limefreckle Jr. and then this one, afterwards). I laid off running for quite awhile.
Recently I tried to take it up again. Never mind my herniated disc I told myself, I can do this.
But I can't. And more importantly I DON'T WANT TO.
Those are powerful words to me.....I really DONT WANT to run, and so why should I? It's time on this journey, to find the exercises that REALLY inspire me, that MAKE me want to go to the gym, in short, THAT I ENJOY.
I found this on Pinterest, the other day, and couldn't agree more:
THE FUTURE ME AT THE GYM
(the link didn't work to the original source, so I can't give you the origin of this, but I like this gal's style!)
While I do go to a traditional "gym" twice a week for weight training (with my fantastic trainer Trevor, that trains my mind as much as my body, and makes me look forward to our sessions), my real passion is HOT YOGA! It's absolutely the most fantastic form of exercise I have ever come across, I can't WAIT to get to classes, and I often find myself disappointed when the class is over.
It's not easy, poses can be very challenging, and I feel that I can definitely achieve the body that I desire by doing hot yoga. I used to always say "but I still need my cardio", or "I have to do weights" and while I do believe that to some extent, more and more I'm starting to see the benefits of yoga, and what a wonderful exercise it really is. What has surprised me most about my practice is the mind, body connection. I've found that the more I practice, especially when done many days in a row, the calmer and more relaxed my mind is. I may not lose this weight as quickly as I would if I were running, but my weight is going DOWN, and that is all that matters.
I have found the exercise for me that I can see myself doing for the rest of my life. In a yoga class I feel long, lean, like a ballerina.
This is how I think I look during yoga:
This is what I probably really look like:
But somehow I'm OK with this. I wear the skimpiest outfits that I wouldn't be caught dead in at the gym. I am free to be myself, to grow and improve in my own time, and to challenge no one but myself. My body is getting stronger, my mind is getting stronger, my CONFIDENCE is getting stronger. It's a good thing.
This is my non-scale victory for this week. Figuring out what really works for me, and not being afraid to admit it.
linking up with Katie and Lex for Non Scale Victories.