Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Fall inspiration

I love to create new polyvore outfits whenever I post new jewelry in my shop, to give me inspiration for my baubles.  This is one of the new combinations I came up with this week:

Brown leather triple wrap bracelet, crystals and cream pearls, in my shop here
This is the inspiration outfit I came up with.  I LOVE this Danier jacket, might need it for this fall season:

Monday, August 26, 2013

Confessions of a summer sloth....

This is what I wish I looked like on the couch.......

This is probably a much better representation of how I've been feeling....

I REALLY need school to start soon, because I've have become a full blown sloth, and I need some motivation to get back into the swing of things. 

On the plus side, I've gotten caught up to date on several TV shows......Ray Donovan has become a new favourite, and I recently finished Black is the New Orange ....highly recommend them both!

Rufus is totally on board with my slothdomness.....

sometimes he stares at me when I'm on the couch......DON'T JUDGE ME DUDE!!!

I promise this is going to change soon!  As I write this, the pool heater is on, I'm taking this outside to the lounge chair and floatie in the pool today.....who knows how many hot days we are going to have left this summer? 

But it's all going to end soon......I'm resolving to embrace my slothness this week, to enjoy every last drop that our final week of holidays has to offer!  The real world will intrude soon enough, I'm going to learn how to be OK with my choices.....the first step is acceptance....

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Friday, August 16, 2013

Finding your passion

This summer Limefreckle Jr. has found his passion.  He wants to be a movie maker.  He's been interested in that for a while, but we recently downloaded imovies for his ipad, and he's been off to the races!!

He went to a week long camp this year that included a portion of movie making, they learned to make a trailer in imovies.  He was already familiar with the program, he's been teaching himself, but he's picked up a few more tips and tricks along the way.  We've found some great apps and soundtracks that he's used for his movies....he pulls out all his dinosaurs (I wager a bet this kid owns more plastic animals than any other child on earth) and films them for hours.....or he films his Skylanders.  Adds music and dialogue, fills in the credits.  He filmed our trip up North in several different parts.  He has a panda bear that played a prominent role in the film, I laughed out loud when the credits roled, and the film was directed by "Andy McPandy".  I didn't even know the panda had a name....

We finally decided to buy him his own computer, as his ipad can only hold so much.  We bought him a mac mini, which he's busy teaching himself to use.  There are SO many you tube videos people have put out there that teach you how to do different effects in imovies.  One thing he is experimenting with is the green screen.   We watched a few videos on youtube to get an idea for a cheap set up and came up with this...

If you are interested in making one of these for you or your child, we basically just purchased these plastic table cloths at the dollar store, and hung them using painters tape.  I purchased 2 table cloths, and layered one on the other, because they are fairly thin.  This is the basic, rock bottom set up.  If he gets into this more and more, I may invest in a proper fabric green screen, but this will do the trick for now!

After a couple of practice runs, we realized he needed better lighting, so off to Home Depot for some clamp lights....which we will set up this week.  I love that he has found a passion in something, and while I don't really expect him to move to Hollywood anytime soon, I want to foster his interests as best I can, because who really knows what it will lead to.  I saw Temple Grandin speak last year about finding the things your child loves, and is good at, and pointing them in that direction to help them be successful as an adult.  So far this seems to be his niche....and I'm going to encourage it the best I can!

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Thursday, August 15, 2013

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

There has been an interesting revelation for me the past week or so, I thought I would share it here...

Since I started this new way of "mindful eating" I've noticed that I'm starting to see myself a little differently.  Normally I don't like to look at myself in the mirror.  I may feel I look good when I leave my house in the morning, yet I often catch a glimpse of myself in a store window, or somewhere throughout the day, and all I see are my flaws.  I hate that.  When I work out, my trainer constantly has to remind me to look in the mirror and watch my form.....I basically avoid mirrors.

This started with a picture that I found recently of myself in a bathing suit, on the beach.  I was 135-140 lbs, wearing a 2 piece, and fairly happy with my body.  In the picture, I'm next to a friend, who I always viewed as much smaller than myself.  Looking at that picture today, I realize that we are the same size....I realize that all that time back then, I thought I was so big, and I wasn't. 

This weekend I was out of town at a family wedding.  There were a couple of times that I got dressed, looked in the mirror, and saw a thinner person there than I normally envision.  This was especially so when I had my dress on, ready to go.  I felt like I looked good, and I was happy. That RARELY happens to me.  I don't have any pics of me from the day of the wedding, I didn't have anyone take any of me, except one huge family pic where I grabbed a small child to stand in front of me (one of my tricks for having my pic taken....it hides the belly).  I guess maybe I didn't want a picture of me in that dress, because what if the picture didn't reflect what I saw in the mirror?  I didn't want anything to take away the good feeling I had of myself.

The day after the wedding I put on a top that I had just bought, and AGAIN, I felt good about myself.  It was a very good, but foreign feeling.  I haven't really lost any weight, so why do I suddenly have this change in my attitude?  I wonder if it has to do with my new approach to my weight, and my body.  My thinking is shifting, and so is my perception of myself.

I had my brother photograph me that day, this is the picture.  When I look at the picture, compared to what I saw in the mirror that day, I'm probably a bit more critical, but I'm OK with it.  I'm learning that I don't want to avoid the camera anymore, I don't want to avoid mirrors anymore.  I want to be easier and more gentle on myself, and remember this is a process, and I'm changing....


Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Weigh In Wednesday -- what to do when there is a party?

So, I had a wedding this weekend....an out of town wedding, with family that I haven't seen in forever.....it was a BLAST, I had so much fun, HOWEVER, I was a bit worried about how my eating could get a little out of control in a situation like that, which was normally a free for all. I managed to eat as I have been, mindfully, with thought, and only when I was truly hungry. Even when faced with the cutest candy table at the wedding, I ate pretty mindfully.  That part I felt like I had down pat. The drinking was something I hadn't really thought about.... When I'm at a social gathering, I don't go CRAZY (unlike the 20 somethings that were at this wedding.....slammin' back the vodka and whisky shots like I've never seen....I'd have been under the table in 20 mins...) but I do tend to always have a glass of wine, or maybe a beer in my hand. I did NOT do a good job of drinking MINDFULLY.  I just drank, and didn't put any thought into it.  But when I got home and reviewed the weekend, I didn't beat myself up for falling off the wagon - I just noticed what I had done over the weekend, and reminded myself to think differently the next time (we have another wedding on labour day weekend)

As a result, I stayed the same this week. So no loss, but no gain either, which I normally would have expected.  I'm quite happy with that.   I'm still doing a good job of eating only at the table (even snacks, except one day I did have some popcorn in front of the TV during a movie...but I kept thinking at every bite..."have you had enough, are you full?)  It's a lot of work to eat this way SO FAR, but the point is that eventually it will all be second nature.....

linking up with Weigh in Wednesday again.....

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Thursday, August 8, 2013

Blurred Lines, classroom style....

I shared this on my FB page recently, but when I noticed it today on Big Mama's blog I thought I should share it on my blog too.....I'm a shameless copycat obviously...

I haven't been able to get this song out of my head all summer, it's a great song to drive up north to (accompanied by your son on the bongos....) Robin Thicke is the best...and the song is just as good played with the classroom instruments -- love the guy on the xylophone!

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Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Weigh in Wednesday - a new way of looking at food

I've decided to really mix things up around here. I'm going to try something that for years I've been wanting to do, but have always felt to scared to give it a try. I'm going to try MINDFUL EATING. Years ago, I used to read every single book Geneen Roth wrote.   If you don't know who she is, she is an author that writes about emotional eating, and the connection to your feelings and what you are eating.  All of her books really spoke to me, however I've always been very hesitant to actual employ her techniques.  In a nutshell, no food is off limits.  She has certain guidelines to follow, you can't just eat whatever you want, whenever you want (cause I've been doing that, and IT'S NOT WORKING!).  But there isn't an actual DIET to follow, no calorie counting, no exercise plan, NADA.  That doesn't mean I won't exercise, or maybe be mindful of the calorie choices I make....but it's not part of this plan.

I've always been too afraid to try eating this way.  I've always said to myself "wait till I lose the weight, THEN I'll try it".  I guess deep down I feel that if I allow myself to eat in this manner, I might lose all control, and never stop.  But when I really think about that statement, it just seems RIDICULOUS! I already have lost control in my eating, how much worse can this be?  Wouldn't it make more sense to really PAY ATTENTION to what I'm eating.

The thought of paying attention to what I'm eating, listening to my bodies cues, deciding if I'm REALLY hungry for what I'm about to eat, or just eating it to cover up something else (boredom, stress, anger, sadness -- you name it I've eaten for all those emotions and more!) is a scary proposition for me.  If you don't have any food related issues, than this probably seems absurd to you....because most normal people eat this way intuitively....but I don't.  I need to RELEARN how to eat this way.

I've been rereading Geneen's book "Why Weight", and just the thought of all foods being "allowed" in my new way of eating fills me with:

1) incredible relief - like a weight lifted off my shoulders, and

2) incredible fear - what if I can't control myself?

I've been following this plan for about a week now, I started shortly after weigh in Wednesday last week when I had gained a pound, and I have given it my all......and I LOST 5 FRIGGIN POUNDS! 
I couldn't believe the scale when I stepped on it, I thought something must be wrong!  I'm feeling comfortable with my decision to stop worrying about counting points/calories/weighing and measuring, and I'm really listening to my body's cues to tell me when I'm truly hungry. I'm eating all my meals at the table, with no TV or newspaper to distract me, I'm putting my fork down, I'm trying to just FEEL how the food tastes, if I need to keep eating, etc.  So far it's working.....

Hooking up with the girls at Weigh in Wednesday this week!

Pretty Strong Medicine

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